Urgh.
That pretty much sums up my week.
For all the talk I do about self-employment and doing what you love, a huge chunk of my day is spent slaving away at my keyboard for peanuts at an e-commerce data entry/graphics goon job.
Why? Because my income from everything else I do isn’t quite steady yet. And we need to pay bills.
Not to take away from last week’s post. I have ramped up the income from WPChick lately so that’s a good thing I can’t forget to celebrate.
Most days I take these hours and plop myself on the couch and catch up with some shows I like on Hulu or Netflix or listen to the hundreds of hours of teleclasses I haven’t gotten to yet in iTunes.
And I’m OK with that. Because how many of you can honestly say you make money while watching TV?
But some weeks (like this one) everything just seems pointless. The hours I waste for crap pay at this job could be better spent marketing or researching or developing my real work.
Days like today my heart is crushed by the brainless, endless, repetitive work that I know I’m not built to do.
And the boredom…
Oh the boredom! I swear I’d rather poke my own eyes out with sharp pointy things than be bored.
All that aside, I know that lots of people build viable businesses while they still have day jobs, and I’m sure at least 2 of them feel like I do about boredom.
But they do it. They make it happen because they know this current life thing they’re dealing with is only for a short time. Because they know they’re working for something they love and that will get them out of the crud they’re currently in.
If they can do it, so can I.
And that’s what pulls me out of it all. That’s what makes me cuddle up with my MacBook on my couch, turn on the latest episode of Stargate: SGU and tap away at the keyboard.
It’s all up to me.
I know there are at least another 4 hours of the day I can use towards my dreams, and it’s really up to me how I use that time. If I waste it, I can’t get it back, and that’ll just postpone my dreams.
So I’ll just pick up tomorrow and keep going forward.
No use in dwelling on lost time. If I’m going to do this, if I want to do this, I will stop my boredom haze from spilling over into the rest of the day and use that time as best I can. And I’ll start digging up some new shows (and teleclasses!) to fill my brain while my fingers do the walking.
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This is something that stops me cold a lot of times. It’s just emotional gunk I find myself sinking in and I finally realize why. And I can do something about it now that I can see what it is.
Is there something that stops you from running after your dreams? How can I help you?
*sorry no links today 
But I found a rockin’ picture of musicians in monster costumes playing in Union Square!
photo credit: aprilzosia
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